by: Tondia Shotwell
Humph
Here I am
Everything that you asked me to be
Demoralized, devalued, and disrespected
But this is what you wanted,
Right?
A woman with a voice you did not desire. You wanted someone that you could control. Some that would throw herself at your every beckoning call
Someone who knew their role and place in the relationship, who would make sure that what was seen was always good, while what she thought was never heard
Well here I am….in the flesh baby
Ready to do whatever, whenever, however you want it
Is this dress too long? I can make it shorter
Am I high enough for you? I can definitely increase that too. It actually helps to numb the feeling of worthlessness that I so joyfully cover up as I become your bitch
your whore
your girlfriend number 2…your side chick never to be your main sidekick
But we’ll concern ourselves with that at a later time because damn I look good holding this Michael Khors bag
And I’ve acquired so many haters since you bought me this Benz. You got it the color I wanted and put my name on the plate so that as I drive away, everyone knows that BSSBTCH was here
LOL
So yes Boo
You can have whatever you like
Ill be that trophy you display in front of your friends. The smoke emulating from the oohs and ahhhs will be so thick as to mimic a storm cloud. And so lightly will I tread through the river of “Damn baby you thick” you’ll think that I’m floating
Then home you will take me
and I will watch you drive away….to your life….with your family….that doesn’t include me
with the wife whose rank you have placed higher than mine. For while she makes you look good in business, I’ll provide you with all of the pleasure
While she bears your children, I will carry the scars of my lonely nights
while she cooks your breakfast, I will continue to give excuses to myself for why I am still alone.
I won’t shed a tear as you proclaim to your friends my ride or die pride, then proceed to volunteer me for group train rides
I won’t mutter a word as you watch everyone feel me up and tell me everything they would like to do to me, and you cosign it with your laughter
but fight the thought of anyone giving your wife the crooked eye
no not me
Because I was designed to be lusted after….not wanted
You created me to be only what you see in your fantasies, but the woman you see your forever with
Is the complete opposite of me
